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The man declares, I am weary, O God;
I am weary, O God, and worn out.
2Surely I am too stupid to be a man.
I have not the understanding of a man.
3I have not learned wisdom,
nor have I knowledge of the Holy One.
4Who has ascended to heaven and come down?
Who has gathered the wind in his fists?
Who has wrapped up the waters in a garment?
Who has established all the ends of the earth?
What is his name, and what is his son’s name?
Surely you know! ~ Proverbs 30:1b-4

This is what I woke up to… not even a joke. I am so tired… and I feel so stupid, or just confused, but God is bigger than that. God’s knowledge and wisdom is bigger and beyond my human understanding. So instead of trying to trust in my own ways, my own understandings, my own knowledge… I just need to trust in God. So I told God that I was sorry for trying to take care of my circumstances on my own strength, for trying to do what should only be done by Him. Then I asked for more faith, more love and more hope so that I may persevere, not in my own strength, but on His strength.

the Proverbs 31 woman...

"Faith in God that sees beyond present bitter setbacks. Freedom from the securities and comforts of the world. Courage to venture into the unknown and the strange. Radical commitment in the relationships appointed by God. This is the woman of Proverbs 31:25 who looks into the future with confidence in God and laughs at the coming troubles: 'Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come.'" ~ John Piper



I strive... oh I strive... but alas I still fall so short of becoming her. But I desire... and I know that I have set my eyes on becoming what God wants for me... so He will make it possible. Ladies... it is not hopeless! He will bring the strength it requires to become the woman of God that He calls us to be! Just hang on!