simply sad...

I am simply overcome by sadness. It has been a hard week... and everything all together just made me overwhelmingly homesick. My grandpa passed away last week and today was the funeral. There... I said it. How sad is it that I don't feel like I can tell people, but I can post it here on the internet. But I guess that is where the feeling homesick part comes in.
I'm trying so hard, but somedays I still feel so alone. I feel like when I needed a friend, a shoulder to cry on the most, the world walked out on me and left me no one. When I needed just one encouraging word, a hug, or even just a pat on the shoulder, I came up empty. I'm tired of reaching out, can someone please reach in.
I miss having those few numbers that I can call when I'm in need. I miss those who always know when to call and what to say. I really could've used a kind word today... even just a simple text or a missed call to know that someone thought of me today. To know someone remembered...
Maybe I've been too cautious, and not open enough. Maybe I just haven't tried hard enough to open up? I really don't know what else I can do... I've already laid aside my pride and dignity. I really have no more to give... I really don't.

3 times...

Deut 31:6, 7-8, 23

3 times this morning God said "Be strong and courageous"

He said to be strong and courageous because:
~He is with me
~He will never leave me or forsake me
~God will fulfill His promise
~He has gone before me

He also said to not be afraid or discouraged.

I do think that God's made His point this morning. I'm not quite sure what He may be referring to, but when the situation comes for me to stand firm and to be strong and courageous, I shall cling onto the words that He has given me this morning. I'm very excited to see that through it, God's gonna reveal a fulfilled promise! Thanks for the message God!